Trust..

Sometimes I wish I could control how things turn out. My insurance runs out as of May 1st. However I am due on May 7th. This means that we will be switching insurance, hospitals, doctors, and nursing staff right before we have the baby. We will also need to meet a whole new deductible, even though we have already met our other one for the year. Even worse, May 1st is a weekend and so the soonest I can have my initial prenatal intake is on the 3rd of May. The soonest I will be able to see the Dr. is the 5th of May. What happens if I go into labor before those appointments, but after my other insurance has run out? As someone who is never a procrastinator, but always a preparer I am scared that things will not all be in place when I go into labor. I have been praying that if it is God's will and if Preston is already fully developed then if he could come now before our insurance runs out, then it would be best for us. However I have a feeling that it will not happen, because my baby probably is not ready to come into the world. I once again am faced with the need for patience and faith in the Lord that everything will work out according to his timeline and not mine. (This is a constant lesson and theme in my life.) As someone who believes that babies should come when they are ready and are fully developed according to themselves, not when a due date says it is, I turned down the option to be induced with my Dr. now and have put my trust in the Lord. It was so hard to do, but I am feeling good and more confident about the decision. Now all I can do is pray that everything will go well and that God will help me endure the rest of this pregnancy. The waiting game continues but now with a little more trust and faith in the Lord.

Taken 38.5 weeks.

Baby Preston's Big Top Baby Shower

Lana threw me an awesome baby shower about a month ago. It was filled with lots of good friends, cute decorations, awesome treats, fun games, and lots of love. It really was the funnest baby sower I have ever been to, and we all had a great night. Thanks to everyone for helping me to celebrate our new little boy coming to our family!

Yummy Treats!!

Super Cute "Big Top" decorations!

Lots of super cool people, and awesome friends!

Tons of fun "minute to win it" games.

= One super fun girl's night and baby shower.

Thanks so much to the amazing Lana for putting everything together! I loved it!

Yummy!!!

Lana came over yesterday after church and we were both wanting to make something sweet. After a little searching we decided to make a carrot cake that was posted on

www.dana-made-it.com. I am not a carrot cake fan nor a cream cheese frosting fan, but this cake was so divine, easy, and it became one of my favorites after a few bites. I enjoyed it so much I thought I would share it with you. So go to the site and make yourself some delicious cake!! You deserve it! (By the way I know our cake doesn't look nearly as good as Dana's but it tasted amazing!)

Earth Day / "Blueberry"

Brooke and I woke up on Earth Day and thought about all the fun ways we could celebrate our beautiful earth. One of the first things we (I) did while Brooke slept was convert a few diaper boxes into storage bins for a few things I needed separated in my kitchen. I didn't take a picture, but I was feeling very "green" and everything worked out perfectly for the awesome cost of $0.

Once Brooke woke up we decided to make some earth cupcakes and enjoyed eating them. We then went and saw Brooke's first movie in the movie theater "Oceans." It was a great movie but Brooke is one loud little girl and wanted everything explained to her. "What's that Mommy," "oh no Mommy, what eating?" She was very cute and luckily there were lots of other kids in the theater, so we decided that no one really cared about the added commentary.

Once we got home Jason told Brooke that he had a surprise for her. He walked down the stairs, and walked back up with a little Betta fish that he won at a work meeting (actually his D.O.N won it and gave it to Jason.) Brooke loves it. I am scared to death I am going to kill it just like all 12 goldfish I had growing up (I won them at a fair and they all died within hours). I am not good with pets and my mom was surprised I even wanted to keep the fish once I told her about it, because I am pretty admit that I don't want any kind of pet. However, I felt an immediate bond with this little fish (pregnancy hormones) and decided we needed to make him a part of our family. Today Brooke and I decided that we needed to take a trip to the pet store to learn how to take care of him and get him a nice comfortable home. After making him comfortable, we are now happy to present to you...Blueberry (named by Brooke) our first family pet.

She really does love the little fish. She has already hugged it, kissed it, and fed it a sippy cup. All through the glass of course!

Some of our Earth Cupcakes. Somewhat retarded looking but we had fun making them!

We hope you all had a great Earth Day too!

Happy Easter!

Today I feel extremely grateful for the knowledge that I have of the Savior and of his ministry here on this earth. Sometimes (most of the time) I feel I fall short of all that is required of me on this earth, but I am grateful to remember that through Jesus Christ I can be made perfect and return to my Father in Heaven. I am grateful for the example He is and was on this earth. I am thankful that I have the opportunity to continually better myself and try to be more like Him. I know that He died and bled for me personally so I could repent and return to my Father in Heaven and live with him again. I am so grateful for the gift of the resurrection that was not just extended to Jesus Christ but that will be extended to all of us. I am grateful for my membership in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am grateful that I have grown up knowing the answers to the questions that so many people go through this life not knowing. I am grateful that this Easter holiday reminds me of the sacrifices the Savior made for us, and that it gives me the opportunity to thank Him more fully for all the blessings I receive in my life as result. I know that my redeemer lives. I know that he passed below all things and died for every man and women on this earth. I know that He was resurrected and that He lives today and loves us all, and knows us by name. I wish you all the peace, love, joy, and happiness that this holiday brings. Happy Easter!