Trust..

Sometimes I wish I could control how things turn out. My insurance runs out as of May 1st. However I am due on May 7th. This means that we will be switching insurance, hospitals, doctors, and nursing staff right before we have the baby. We will also need to meet a whole new deductible, even though we have already met our other one for the year. Even worse, May 1st is a weekend and so the soonest I can have my initial prenatal intake is on the 3rd of May. The soonest I will be able to see the Dr. is the 5th of May. What happens if I go into labor before those appointments, but after my other insurance has run out? As someone who is never a procrastinator, but always a preparer I am scared that things will not all be in place when I go into labor. I have been praying that if it is God's will and if Preston is already fully developed then if he could come now before our insurance runs out, then it would be best for us. However I have a feeling that it will not happen, because my baby probably is not ready to come into the world. I once again am faced with the need for patience and faith in the Lord that everything will work out according to his timeline and not mine. (This is a constant lesson and theme in my life.) As someone who believes that babies should come when they are ready and are fully developed according to themselves, not when a due date says it is, I turned down the option to be induced with my Dr. now and have put my trust in the Lord. It was so hard to do, but I am feeling good and more confident about the decision. Now all I can do is pray that everything will go well and that God will help me endure the rest of this pregnancy. The waiting game continues but now with a little more trust and faith in the Lord.

Taken 38.5 weeks.