Overwhelmed

I am at a loss for being a parent right now. I have been feeling so overwhelmed. Everyday has been such a struggle. Brooke cries and whines ALL day long over and over again. (This is new since we got back from vacation.) She never eats anything. She just begged me to take her to a restaurant and have a lunch date so we went to IN-n-Out because she was so excited to eat a hamburger and then she refuses to even take a bite even though she is starving.

Her and Preston fight all the time. They love each other but they also hurt each other constantly. She has taught him so many bad things that I feel like my sweet boy is ruined.

The hardest part is that Brooke is a grump and cranky all day long. She has turned into a little 4 year old monster that I just don't want to be around.

I feel horrible for feeling this way but each morning I wake up to crying, fighting, disobedience, and try to be happy and change the vibe in the house but after a few hours I am as bad as they are.

Parenting an overly smart child is HARD! So many people I feel don't get me on this. Seriously I am parenting a teenager mind. She challenges everything I say, she never takes no for an answer. To her it is just a word that means try to manipulate me a different way. She gets life so much but she also challenges everything that goes on.

I don't know what to do. I am a very consistent parent. I don't let my kids walk all over me but I also offer  second chances and lots of love. I feel like I can't give Brooke second chances anymore because she takes it for granted. As soon as she tests and does something she knows she shouldn't and I go to give her the consequence she begs for a second chance even though I just told her what the consequence would be if she does what I am asking her not to do.

I know some days are harder than others but today I just want to run away. Please pray for me because I feel my sanity is already gone.